Thursday, April 21, 2011

Reflection...

About 3 weeks ago I was overcome with the Joy that my cancer journey has brought me.  I just cried out, "Thank you Jesus for giving me cancer!"  I know He did not give me cancer.  What I meant was, "Thank you Jesus for all the blessings I have received and seen throughout this journey!"

I was thinking back how a year ago I could hardly wait for it to be bedtime.  I would wait till 8 pm.  How hard it was for me to get up in the mornings and get our kiddos ready for school.  I just wanted to crawl back into bed once they were off at school.  But now I feel amazing!!!  I have so much energy!  Life is great!!!

I met with Dr. Green (Breast Oncologist) at the beginning of this month.  Everything looked great.  She told me that my appointments would be boring from here on out, which she said was a really good thing.  I will not complain about boring appointments.  My appointments will be every 4 months with Dr. Green.

I also met with Dr. Rapini (Dermatologist).  I had been putting off my annual skin check.  Skin was clear!  I have been Melanoma free for 9 years now!!!  Hallelujah!!!

I have upcoming appointments on May 2nd and 3rd.  On the 2nd I  will have chest x-ray, chest ultrasound and mammogram.  Then on the 3rd I meet with Dr. Perkins (Radiation Oncologist) for follow-up.  My last appointment with Dr. Perkins was in October.

On May 25th I will be having my right breast mastectomy and reconstruction on my left breast.  My pre-op appointment with Dr. Hunt (Breast Surgeon) and Anesthesia is on May 23rd.  Also blood work and EKG on the same day.  And on May 24th I meet with Dr. Skoracki (Plastic Surgeon) for my pre-op, this is where he will draw on me to prep me for surgery the next day.

I healed incredibly quickly from my oophorectomy.  Dr. Lu (Gynecologic Oncologist) will see me once a year.  I have been having some hot flashes but they really aren't as bad as I had expected.  Although, sometimes I do turn the air conditioning on high ;) in the house or in the car.

Kids are doing great!!!  Last day of school is June 2nd, we are excited for summer time!  Jim is doing well too.  He just rode in the MS 150, a bicycle ride from Houston to Austin, about 150 miles.

Everyone is happy and healthy in our home!

I pray that you all take time to reflect on your blessings.  Blessings come in all shapes and sizes.  Look for the good in everything.

Jesus died on the cross for our salvation.  He suffered.  He rose again!!!  And in Him we can always find Joy!!!

Happy Easter!!

Love and Blessings from the Top of my Heart,

Moni

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Most recent photo - my hair has grown so much

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Pathology results...

Good day!!!

I received a call from Dr. Slaughter yesterday evening with the pathology results from last week's surgery.

The pathology report showed my ovaries and fallopian tubes as normal and no cancer.  Praise Jesus!!

We weren't expecting to find any cancer, as this was a surgery to prevent me from getting ovarian cancer.  But I think this is an amazing Miracle and wanted to share the Awesome news with you!!!

We are being cared for by our friends and family.  Meals have been brought in for us, laundry is getting done, Jakob, Kelli and Joey are getting rides to and from school, and Jim and the kids are taking on the cleaning.

Taking it easy is a hard thing to do when you feel so great!!  I was called by Lena, one of my discharge nurses on Monday to make sure I was resting.  It's hard but I am!!

Thank you for your faithful prayers!!!

The Great Physician is clearly evident in this journey!

Have a Joyful day!!!

Love and Blessings from the Top of my Heart,

Moni

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Friday, February 18, 2011

Home Sweet Home...

Hello to my Army of Prayer Warriors!!

Well I'm home.  We got home yesterday afternoon.  I was extremely happy to get home because I missed the kiddos.  I have to tell you my hospital stay was just like staying in a hotel.  The nurses and their assistants were so sweet and caring!!!

So my surgery went well.  I have 4 small incisions in my abdomen.  Dr. Lu said she didn't see anything unusual and that she will receive the pathology report sometime next week.

We had to be at MD Anderson at 5:15 Wednesday morning.  We arrived on "Moni time" at 5:30 am, we got checked in and a whole herd of us headed to the pre-operative "holding" area.  There I was asked some questions by several nurses and assistants.  Chaplain Chan came and prayed with Jim and I for the surgery and all those involved in my care.

The doctors that were in the operating room with Dr. Lu were Dr. Stone and Dr. Webb.  And oh yes Dr. Arunkumar, the Anesthesiologist.  All amazing women!!

It was really cool - I was actually still wide awake on the way down to the operating room.  I bumped into Gordon, my Plastic Surgeon's PA.  The other cool thing, since I was still awake, I got to see the operating room.  I usually am halfway asleep by the time we hit the operating room.  There were the 4 doctors, a nurse or 2 and a few assistants in there.  I actually crawled onto the operating table myself.  The table was covered with this royal blue "egg crate" type material.   The doctors were strapping something onto my legs and the Anesthesiologist was telling me she was going to strap my arm down...and that's all I remember.

I woke up with a sweet nurse named Annalee taking care of me.  I was on oxygen and feeling no pain, yet.  The surgery started between 7 and 7:30 and I remember asking what time it was when I woke up - they said 8:59.  I think Jim was able to come and see me around 10, by that time Dr. Lu had already gone out into the waiting room to let him know that the surgery went well.  (It must be so nerve racking to have to wait through your spouse's surgery.)

I did start feeling some pain and was given some pain meds directly into my IV a couple of times.  We waited in the post-op area (which was also the pre-op area for me) for a room to become available on the Gynecology floor.

Because of all the IV fluids I was being given, I could wait no longer.  It was time for me to get up and use the restroom.  Of course a nurse had to go with me and hold my arm since I had just been under general anesthesia.  The nurse was so proud of me!!  It was just across the hall from my bed.

At one o'clock I was taken to my room.  And let me tell you, it was a nice room!  I met another sweet nurse, Jincy.  A young woman with a big heart for her patients.

Jincy called me a super star patient.  When she found out I had already used the restroom downstairs in the post-op area, she was so impressed!!!  She kept calling me "Super Star".

I had 3 nurses in all while I was in my room.  Jincy, Eva and Mary.  And the nursing assistants were Dora, Romika and Rachel.  All these women love what they do for a living, you could just tell.

my first meal after my surgery
Jim stayed with me for most of the day - he did go run an errand at one point and get himself some dinner.  While he was gone Dr. Webb came in to see me.  I also ordered dinner.  You should see the menu.  I ate crab stuffed shrimp in a lobster cream sauce with grilled veggies, mashed sweet potatoes and NY cheesecake.  I hadn't eaten in over 24 hours at that point.  It was so yummy!!!

The kids were being well cared for by their Aunt and a great friend of ours but it was time for Jim to go home, get them and get to bed.  And another great friend took care of our dogs.  Feeding them and even giving our diabetic dog his insulin injection.

Jakob, Kelli and Joey's wonderful teachers and counselors had been keeping track of my Caringbridge journal and had told them when I was out of surgery and that the surgery went well.  The caring people that are in our lives are evident in all aspects of our life.  Thank you to those teachers and counselors (you know who you are - you are very special to us).

Jim did a great job getting Jakob, Kelli and Joey up for school and to school the next morning.

Meanwhile, at the hospital - I slept well.  One of the nurses or assistants would come in about every 4 hours to check my vitals or give me pain meds.  They were being as quiet as they could be, trying to not wake me up.  Dr. Webb came in to check on me at 5:30 in the morning.  I went back to sleep for about an hour then I was hungry again.  This time I ordered an omelet with veggies and cheese, breakfast potatoes, fresh berries and coffee.  Before my food came, Dr. Webb, Dr. Stone, a couple of interns and a Pharmacist and Pharmacist Assistant came in to visit with me, they checked out my incisions, asked about my pain and we went over the pain medication and instructions for when I get home.

breakfast
Time for my meal.  I'm telling you this is no ordinary hospital.  It is a very special place!!

Dr. Lu came by later in the morning and again gave me the at home instructions and asked if I had any questions.

I also had a couple of discharge nurses come in - they said no cleaning, cooking, stairs or laundry for 2-3 weeks.  I seriously thought they were joking.  They weren't - they made me promise that I would rest.  So once again our family must rely on the generosity of our dear friends.


Jim's lunch
my lunch
Jim came back after taking the kids to school.  We sat and talked for a while.  I got dressed.  Jim went down to the pharmacy to pick up the medication.  Then we decided to eat lunch while we were waiting for me to be released.  I ordered shrimp again, grilled this time and Jim ordered an Asian stir-fry. I don't know why I was so hungry while in the hospital.

I was discharged and taken down to the front entrance while Jim went to get the car.  Thank goodness we don't live far from MD Anderson - it took us about 45 minutes to get home.

I couldn't wait to see the kids when they got home from school.  I know it had only been about a day and a half but it seemed longer.

We had a yummy dinner brought to us by another wonderful friend.

I was able to shower this morning and removed my bandages from my incisions.  Everything looks great.

I went for a walk around the block today.  A very slow walk.  It was such a beautiful day.  The sun was shining and it was probably about 75 degrees.

I am thankful for this surgery.  By having my fallopian tubes and ovaries removed my risk of developing ovarian cancer is reduced by 90%.  Due to the BRCA-1 genetic mutation I had an extremely high chance of developing ovarian cancer.  MD Anderson is a cancer research hospital, I signed a consent to donate my ovaries for research.  The medical advances that are made in cancer treatment is incredible due this miraculous place.  Jincy, the one nurse I had, told me that she has seen many miracles by working there.

I know I am one of those miracles.  I want to thank you for your thoughts and prayers.  I know Jesus is The Great Physician and that brings me Peace and Joy.  I pray the same for you!!!

Thank you from the top of my heart!!!

Love and Blessings from the Top of my Heart,

Moni

P.S.  No menopause symptoms yet!!!!  Keep those prayers coming! :)

waiting to go home with my honey
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Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Surgery Update...

Moni's of surgery and in a room now. Everything went great and she'll be staying at the hospital overnight to be monitored before going home tomorrow afternoon. Thank you for all your prayers and support! Jim

Monday, February 14, 2011

LOVE...

Happy Valentime's Day!! That's what my kids use to say.  I still say it that way.

Today is a day that stands for  LOVE.  I LOVE you all!

Proverbs 3:3 says, "Let LOVE and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your HEART. "

LOVE is not just a word that means I like you very much.  LOVE is a verb, an action.  You have given me so much LOVE throughout my journey.  You have prayed, you have sent notes, emails, messages, meals, taken my kids, changed my bandages, picked me up.  You have done so many "things" for me.  That is LOVE!!!  Thank you!!

It's time for my next surgery.  I will be having an Oophorectomy (having my ovaries and tubes removed) on Wednesday, February 16th.  The procedure is considered major surgery, mostly because I will be under general anesthesia.  My Gynecological Oncologist, Dr. Lu is planning on going in laparoscopically to remove my ovaries and fallopian tubes.

I don't have a specific time for the surgery yet, I only know that it's taking place on Wednesday.  Tomorrow I have all my pre-op appointments and will find out late tomorrow afternoon the time of the surgery.  I do know that I will spend Wednesday night in the hospital.

Having an Oophorectomy will put me into immediate menopause.  We have all heard the symptoms of menopause and some of you have already experienced those moments.  Watch out for Moni!!! ;)

So once again I ask for your LOVE!  Please pray for Dr. Lu and her medical team that will be working on me.  Please pray for my kiddos - they are concerned about me having surgery.  Pray for Jim, he will be waiting  for me while I have surgery.  Pray for me.  Please pray that I can handle the menopause symptoms with grace.

Thank you for your LOVE!

Show someone who's not expecting it some LOVE.

LOVE and Blessings from the top of my HEART,

Moni

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Thursday, January 6, 2011

Happy New Year...

Happy New Year to y'all!!!

We had a great Christmas break!  It was very quiet and we enjoyed every moment of it.  This week has also been very special as my Uncle from Canada and Aunt and Uncle from California came to visit us for a couple of days - we had such a wonderful time together!!

2011 has started off much differently than 2010 did.  But don't all new years start off differently?  I'm thankful for 2010 - I was cured of breast cancer.  The journey began at the end of 2009 and will continue on for the rest of my life.  I have been blessed to have the Lord carrying me through it all.

Jim and I just finished the 2011 Texas Half Marathon
New Year's Eve was a very early one for us.  We had to get to bed because I had Jim and I signed up for a Half Marathon on New Year's Day.  January 1, 2011 Jim and I completed our first half marathon together - he beat me by a second, but like a good wife I was following my husband's lead(haha!).  Jim would rather I not disclose our official time but I'd like to - so here it goes 3:21:57 and 3:21:58.  It was really important to me to start the new year off like this.  We walked but we did it!  Jim probably could have run it in half the time but chose to stay by my side.  Thanks Jimmy!!!

Kelli and her cast
Later on that day our sweet children (who didn't take our advice) went jumping on a friend's trampoline.  It was dark and there were several kiddos on the trampoline playing nicely and then our sweet little girl started crying because she hurt her ankle.  It was swollen like a balloon.  We iced it immediately.  Wrapped an Ace bandage around it and had her use crutches.  Kelli's ankle eventually started bruising - we were pretty convinced it was a severe sprain.  I ended up taking her to the orthopedist yesterday and as it turns out she has a crack in her growth plate.  Just a small one.  The Dr. told me not to freak out, that it is quite common and she'll heal fine.  Kelli gets to wear a removable walking cast for 4-6 weeks and will stay on the crutches until she can comfortably go without them.  She said, "no more trampolines".

A few days before 2010 ended I noticed some soreness in my left hand and a little bit of swelling.  I've been continuing to do my Manual Lymph Drainage along with the wrapping of my arm and wearing my compression sleeve when needed.  The pain is still there and has travelled up my arm some.  But I'm only noticing slight swelling in the top of my hand and in my fingers. I've been talking to the nurse at my Oncologist's office and they are thinking that it may be Lymphedema.  I will be starting physical therapy with the Lymphedema Therapist next Wednesday.

I'm a little frustrated over the possibility of having Lymphedema but I have to keep reminding myself that it is NOT CANCER.

This new year is truly a blessing.  We are able to laugh and enjoy the life we have been given.  I do have several friends and family that are going through some tough things at this time.  Whether it be an illness, loneliness, financial struggles, etc.  Please remember that praying and leaning on God helps us get through those tougher times.

Speaking of prayer, would you please pray for Kelli's growth plate to heal properly and please pray that this Lymphedema leave my body.

Our blessings!
I will pray that this year will bring you health and Joy!!!

God Bless you!!!

Love and Blessings from the top of my heart,

Moni

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Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Stille Nacht....

"Silent night, holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace

Silent night, holy night!
Shepherds quake at the sight
Glories stream from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia!
Christ, the Saviour is born
Christ, the Saviour is born

Silent night, holy night
Son of God, love's pure light
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With the dawn of redeeming grace
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth "

Every year I cry whenever we sing this beautiful hymn at church at Christmas time.  Last year was different.  I didn't.  You'd think I would have since it was just a couple of weeks after I had been diagnosed with breast cancer.  I remember Jim glancing towards me  (he was playing in the band on Christmas Eve), looking for my usual tears.  Probably expecting me to be sobbing.  But I wasn't.  I really felt calm and the Radiant beams shining down on me.

I did have tears rolling down my face this past Sunday when we were singing "Silent Night".  Not because I was sad but because I was truly focusing on the beautiful words and meaning of this song.

Twenty years ago today my Mama was diagnosed with breast cancer.  I will never forget her beautiful voice, singing "Silent Night" right next to me in the pew on Christmas Eve that year.  We had nothing but Hope to hold onto that year.  It was a confusing time.  No real answers - not yet.  It was a time to wait.  A time to remember why we were here on earth.  A time to celebrate the birth of our Savior who gives us Hope.

So my tears every year were because of the fact that I can hear my Mama's voice singing the glorious hymn and me missing her.  This year my tears are different.  They mean more than me missing Mama.  They mean that I am thankful for truly understanding the words to the hymn.  

Sometimes we would also sing a verse of "Silent Night" in German, "Stille Nacht" to close our Christmas Eve service.

Stille Nacht, heilige Nacht, alles schlaft, einsam wacht
Nur das traute heilige Paar. Holder Knab im lockigten Haar.
Schlafe in himmlischer Ruh', Schlafe in himmlischer Ruh'




I miss you Mama.  I know you are a Heavenly Host singing ALLELUIA!!!














Merry Christmas to you all from Texas!














May you truly remember the Gift that we are celebrating.














Love and Blessings from the top of my heart,








Moni