Let me start by giving you the GREAT news -- I received a MIRACLE today!
Now let me give you the background. The pancreatic clinic at MD Anderson has been screening me for a year now. Last May I had an MRI done of my pancreas, it looked great but a 0.7 cm lesion was found on my liver. My oncologist decided to have the MRI done again 6 months later in November. The lesion was still there, still the same size, it hadn't changed. So that was great news also! However, my oncologist decided that I should have another MRI focused on the liver before she referred me to the liver clinic. That happened yesterday.
I'm not claustrophobic but I am not a fan of the tight space of the MRI tube. I've learned that closing my eyes before being put into the tube helps me trick my mind into not focusing on the tight space. I also don't like the loud hammering sounds -- they sound like jackhammers.
This time I was offered music to listen to, they asked me which genre, I asked for Christian. They put noise cancelling earplugs in for me & the headphones on. In the tube I went.
I usually feel incredibly lonely when I'm in the MRI. This one was 40 minutes long, with times of breath-holding also. The music, at first was so loud that I almost pressed the call button. I couldn't even understand the words of the first song because it was so loud! I didn't know the next song but there was a line in the song, "through the noise, I hear You whisper". I got teary-eyed. What a sweet reminder that God is always with me, I was not alone!
The next song was "The Voice of Truth". I sang along with tears in my eyes. Here are the words that spoke to me:
“The waves they
keep on telling me
Time & time
again. “Boy, you’ll never win!”
“You’ll never
win!”
But the Voice
of Truth tells me different story
The Voice of Truth
says, “Do not be afraid!”
And the Voice
of Truth says, “This is for My glory”
Out of all the
voices calling out to me
I will choose
to listen and believe the Voice of Truth”
I felt confident in knowing I was at the right place at the right time. God was in control.
This morning I had the results appointment with my oncologist. Bloodwork all came back perfect. Some numbers had even improved. The MRI results were better than I could have imagined. I really was thinking that as long as the lesion was the same size, that would be good. God had a better plan, the lesion is completely GONE!!! Praise the Lord!! A miracle!! My oncologist told me to keep doing what I'm doing, she was so happy with the results.
My mother-in-law asked me what I thought the reason was for that. She asked if I believed if it was prayer, healthy eating, breathing, yoga, icebaths. I know that prayer is number one but I also believe that my story is for God's glory. I don't only want to share my story, I need to share it. I'm thankful for the tools God has given me to continue on a healthy journey. I'm thankful that God is using me to share His Glory!
Also last night, I met the sweetest young lady in the MRI clinic, she too has problems getting blood drawn & IVs put in. My vein blew with the first IV try. She encouraged me by telling her story. Please pray for Shelby, she's having surgery on Friday. She is also a cancer survivor.
Please share your story and remember God's glory when you do.
Thank you for your prayers & support!
To God be all the Glory!
Love,
Moni
PS
Please read these words & listen to this song.
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
On top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth
I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
Cause Jesus you are the voice of truth
And I will listen to you, you are
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